I'm plain tired. F**k it all. I don't know what I feel for him. I'm not sure of my feelings and make it sound like it's a big deal, while it's not. For him it's big, and I can't, simply can't put him in first place right now. In front of my family and studies. And yes, schol is that important to me.
to D: Happy? Is that clear enough for 'my confusion'? I really don't know. gimme time to figure it out.
Truly, f**k it all.